Sunday, July 20, 2008

Day 189 and even the livestock....

Doing yesterday's devotional this morning (yes, I forgot to do it yesterday morning!), the lesson was from Jonah and this verse really hit me:

But Nineveh has more than a hundred and twenty thousand people who cannot tell their right hand from their left, and many cattle as well. Should I not be concerned about that great city? Jonah 4:11

So if God cares so much about even the cattle, shouldn't I realize that my needs will be met? Why do I have such a hard time accepting that? I have to tell you after the latest news yesterday about Josh's car (which is a result of him going through that ditch a few weeks ago), Tom & I both felt devastated, overwhelmed, and depressed. It led us to having words and everyone in the house being upset. Just a small example of what money stress can do to a person or a family, I guess. It just seems that we have had vehicle problem after problem over the last few months and it's beginning to get to us. I'm incredibly thankful for the EF. Without it, all of this would have been even more stressful. I'm just tired of being stressed and being worried. But I'm still breathing so I guess there's going to be problems, right? LOL!

I don't really have a point today, except I guess that I still need prayers for strength and wisdom to keep on keeping on with this journey. Some days it's really tempting to go back to that ostrich mentality.


2 comments:

Mom Thumb said...

Not trying to be a Pollyanna here, because I HATE that 'blow sunshine up my butt' mentality . . . it could very well be Josh damaged along with the car and you could very well be sitting in a hospital room right now. Don't forget to count your blessings and please remember how well you are doing with all of this. I really love and admire you guys!

KiddoKare1 said...

Believe me, Linda, I'm well aware of how much worse it could be. I think that's part of why I'm such an emotional wreck lately. At least one of the many reasons. It's also why I'm so mad at myself for being so frustrated about all of this. It could be worse, but sometimes it just feels bad enough, ya know?