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Monday, July 14, 2008

Day 183 and 6 months

Today it has been six months since I started the blog and Tom & I have turned our life around. Sure we've been stupid a time or two or three along the way but all in all things are much better. However, the last few weeks have been hard and I've been struggling with feeling really down about it all. Summer is always really tough with teacher's kids dropping down to fewer days per week, then I lost a full-time child on top of it. We haven't been able to put any extra towards debt since May and we've been lucky to stay afloat through most of it. Then there's the car repairs. UGH! Josh's car has been in the shop for 2 weeks now and thankfully Tom's car is still holding up so that Josh can drive it and Tom can drive the van. I don't know how much Josh's car is going to end up costing us, but we did tell Josh that he had to pay for at least part of it. We had to use part of the EF a couple of weeks ago to pay for what the insurance wouldn't pay on the tooth Tom had pulled last month. So it stands at $685 right now. If we were paying for all of Josh's car repairs, I think that would about wipe it out and we still have to figure out what's going on with Tom's car. Anyway, I guess my point is all of this has been weighing on me and stressing me and overwhelming me almost to the point of being unable to even think about it. Does that sound weird? I know it is. It sounds like the old Tracy who lived in denial and let things pile up and get way behind. I know that God will take care of us and I know that we have to be smart with what God gives us. So you might say some prayers for us, because I know that Tom is struggling too.

Have a great week everyone!


Mom Thumb said...

I think you are doing great, but I sure do understand the feeling of being overwhelmed. Jess and I were just talking a couple of days ago about how you kind of hum along, kind of in a rut even, and then everything piles up and has to be done at once. We are in that mode right now with six big deal things that all need to be done by the end of the month. Now why can't this stuff be spread out over oh, say six months?!

We did get the AC fixed yesterday afternoon and fortunately it was a small inexpensive part and not a whole new unit.

Di said...

Don't let it get you down! You have improved so much in a very short time. I know Josh's car has been a pain. Mark has been trying to cut corners a little to help save you some money, but it just hasn't been working out. You know you don't have to pay us all of it at once. Hopefully Tom's car just needs a tune up or something minor like that.

KiddoKare1 said...

Thanks, Linda. That is great that you got the a/c fixed and that it wasn't something major!

Di, yes, I knew Mark was trying to help, and I understand and appreciate that. I'm more just struggling with feeling guilty because I'm down a kid and haven't filled the spot and I'm losing another one next month to pre-k. That stress and worry on top of everything else is just really getting to me. For some reason, I haven't been able to just let go of it and hand it over to God.