The devotional I had this morning was about tears and how we frequently feel the need to apologize for crying. This was especially appropriate for me because I have been bursting into tears at the littlest things lately. I am not sure what the cause is, but it's really been frustrating me. Anyway, the devotional referenced the story where Jesus's friend Lazarus has died and Jesus weeps. The King James Version refers to Jesus groaning in His spirit and weeping. That is so powerful. I feel guilty for feeling sorry for myself. I feel mad at myself for the pity parties. None of which actually helps me with the problem. But the last sentence in the devotional is what really got me: "If you doubt that Jesus cares, remember his tears". So the truth is that "I" cannot heal my hurting spirit. Only Jesus can.
From John 11:33When Jesus therefore saw her weeping, and the Jews also weeping which came with her, he groaned in the spirit, and was troubled.
34And said, Where have ye laid him? They said unto him, Lord, come and see.