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Monday, August 23, 2010

2 Years & Days 218-221: Allowing myself to feel

So the last few days, I've been all over myself about trying to get out of this funk. Saying things like "snap out of it", "you've gotta do something to get past this", etc. This morning I had an aha moment. There is nothing wrong with what I'm feeling. Why not just allow myself to feel it? People get down, people get in funks, and there's nothing wrong with that. Maybe if I just allow myself to feel it for a while (instead of trying to stuff the feelings down inside of me), I'll feel better in the long run. Now I'm not talking about weeks and weeks of feeling sorry for myself. I'm talking about acknowledging what I feel and allowing myself to feel it instead of trying to deny it or "happy up". I will ask for prayers as I work through it and I'll try to keep myself posting daily on the blog, even if it's only a sentence or two a day to check in. This coming weekend, I am going to Women of Faith and I am really looking forward to it. It always gives me such a spiritual lift. What's more, this is the first year that I've gone that our finances have been at a point where I was able to pay for my own tickets and motel room without getting a scholarship from the church. What a blessing! Hopefully in a few years, our finances will be at a point that we'll be able to pay for others who cannot afford to go.

When I said, "My foot is slipping," your love, O LORD, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.”- Psalm 94:18-19

1 comment:

Di said...

I hope you get to feeling better. This weekend should really help.It is wonderful that you are able to pay your own way next weekend!