2 years and 306 Days: Thankfulness

Wow, Christmas is just around the corner. I haven't even put away my Halloween decorations! Yikes! But first is Thanksgiving. Let's not zip past that without stopping to consider it. What do you have to be thankful for? My friend read a blog where the writer was trying to write down 1000 things that she was thankful for. Those everyday things in life that we take for granted. So what am I thankful for? I will focus on that for the next few days.

1. Jesus Christ for giving His life for me
2. My wonderful husband Tom who shows me everyday how much he loves me.
3. My oldest daughter Serenity for being a responsible adult.
4. My son Josh for being such a caring person and being so good with kids.
5. My daughter Natasha who always helps me with the groceries or anything else that I ask.

2 Years and Days 293-305: Catching Up

Well, Tom pointed out to me that I am really neglecting the blog. He's right. I have lots of reasons (excuses, whatever you prefer). The main one being that I've been so discouraged that it's been hard to be positive and think of anything positive to write. Another is that Tom and I are not doing very well with the Dave Ramsey principles and I feel like a huge failure in that area. We are having to borrow against his 401k this week to pay to get our bathroom fixed and to help pay for my surgeries over the next few months. I had hoped to never have to borrow money again. Because we are, well I feel like a loser. We haven't had an emergency fund for months, we're blowing money in ways we shouldn't be, and well, as everyone already knows, I"m just feeling lousy. So I'm not sure where to go from here with the blog.

On a positive note, I am going to have the first of 3 laser surgeries on November 24th to clear out my trachea and hopefully help my breathing. It would be great if they could get it all in one and I am praying for that. But I am so glad that they can do it this way where i just have to take off a few days every few weeks rather than closing down for several weeks for major surgery. So pray that the laser surgery works, the other alternative is much more invasive and scary.

Thanks for all the support!

2 Years and Days 285-292: Not Feeling Great

Sorry guys, but I am not feeling great and lately it's been all I can do to get through the day. My appointment with the specialist in OKC is next Tuesday. Hoping to find out when and what they'll be doing.

2 Years and Days 281-284: Update

Well, the bronchoscopy went well on Friday. They got my IV in only one try and I didn't have to leave (which I was threatening to do if they had to poke me more than once) and Tom didn't have to tackle me (which he was threatening to do if I tried to leave, LOL). I found out that I have a tracheal stenosis blocking about 1/2 my airway near my vocal cords. They will be sending me to a specialist in OKC, but I don't have any details on that yet. So please keep praying! It's a relief to know what's going on and a relief to know that I wasn't crazy all these years when I said the asthma medicines didn't help.

2 Years & Days 277-280: Prayers please

Just wanted to check in with everyone before my procedure tomorrow. Please keep me in your prayers. I would really like some answers to what's going on. Thanks!

2 Years & 276 Days: Who is loving this weather?

So who is loving this awesome weather? Cool at night and early morning, warm in the afternoons. The leaves are turning, the days are getting shorter. The kids and I are getting to spend lots of time outside, which has been great.

After I left the doctor's office on Friday, I had a moment where I just wanted to break down. I stopped and prayed before I even left and I've felt a peace over me ever since. As the week goes on, my fear my come back so I would appreciate your prayers.

2 Years and Days 260-275: Finally Back

I am so sorry! Time has just got away from me the last couple of weeks. Here is an update on my health situations:

I am to have a bronchoscopy next Friday to check my airway for blockage or restrictions. Apparently, there is a narrowing near the top of my airway which may be causing my breathing problems. I'm not sure which way to pray so I am just putting it in God's hands. He is in control anyway.

The hormone meds are helping me feel more like myself again emotionally. I'm not feeling like a constant basket case and I'm actually able to get stuff done again without feeling like I"m having to force myself to just go through the motions.